Training has been challenging.
Everything move I make is a considered thought. Sometimes the more I think, the worse I get.
So many things to learn, practise and then apply.
I am not aggressive during training. I have a great deal of respect for the people who take the time to show me things and spend a lot of time listening and being respectful, but not being aggressive. Unlike the young men there I am not showing much bluff and banter, I need time to just internalise, think everything through and get it down pat.
This is fine as long as when the time comes to really compete I draw upon my own agression and don't worry I can be aggressive, I just need to find a way to summon it. Sure be relaxed during training, but for the real thing I need to find that inner confidence.
Confidence is an issue. This isn't something natural or easy for me, but that is why I choose to do it. The best thing is I know that natural ability can be overcome by training. All I have to do is keep doing what I do. Keep turning up, keep my focus and start practising at home and hopefully start believing in myself as a fighter.
It all hinges on training.